Comments on: I Got Nothin’

By: Catherine

Catherine — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 00:47:51 +0000

Hugs to you. I know where you're at, well, at least as much as someone who doesn't know you at all can be. But, having had two pregnancies, I know how it feels to feel dangerously … not yourself. It's hard. Hug.

By: Another Emily

Another Emily — Fri, 02 Jul 2010 01:25:44 +0000

Hang in there, lady. You're tougher than you think and you WILL make it through this.

By: Perpetua

Perpetua — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 19:24:11 +0000

Good plan to do the talking therapy non-drug maintenance. Supposedly the drugs are much more effective in tandem with therapy, and since you can't do anything but therapy right now, you need something to get you through.

I effing hate what pregnancy/postpartum did to my brain. Part of me wonders what would happen if we decided to do this again (which would necessitate going off the drug I'm on now–not cool).

By: 2makes4

2makes4 — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 16:59:09 +0000

I had a moment like that when the girls were about 9 months old. That's when the shrink rollercoaster started last time. Hormones are incredibly powerful little buggers, aren't they?

By: Brooke

Brooke — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 13:27:39 +0000

I suffered from pregnancy depression with West. I knew I was crazy when I threw my son's IKEA chair at my husband.

Will be thinking about you, sending good vibes.

By: jessica

jessica — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 01:59:04 +0000

Oy. Good for you that you're letting it out online and in therapy!
I also get terrible migraines, and when I was pregnant I found that small snacks of protein throughout the day helped a lot (should help with nausea too)–I carried around bags of cubed cheddar cheese and little packs of nuts everywhere I went.
I know what it's like to feel like you're losing your grip on everything you have to take care of, you have to be a little bit selfish and take care of yourself first…and everything else will fall into place. Oh, and your husband will just need to suck up having a moody pregnant wife until he has to deal with a moody postnatal one

By: Shnerfle

Shnerfle — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 01:58:46 +0000

Oof. That sounds like absolutely no fun at all. But good fir you, for asking for help when you need it. Too many women wouldn’t. Keep writing. Keep talking. Things will get better.

I stayed on my meds for both my pregnancies. There was no scientific evidence yet that showed that they were harmful, and the risk of that possibility was completely outweighed by the certainty of my completely losing my shit if I went off them. So, that was my choice.

I hope you continue to reach out. Go ahead, poke Maria. She likes that kind of thing.

By: Jennifer

Jennifer — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 01:49:21 +0000

I had that with my two pregnancies too. I just had this horrible sense of foreboding. I wouldn't let my daughter out of my sight accept to go to daycare and then I worried non-stop. When I went to the hospital to have my c-sections I had panic attacks, and then afterward I had to be put on anxiety meds and anti-depressants. Now two years later I've just come to realize that the hormones were just really different with my second pregnancy and they just made me feel like a completely different person. A crazy person.

There is nothing wrong with reaching out and getting help. Having someone to talk to that you trust and that can help you work through what is going on is great. Asking for help is not a sign of weakness. It is a sign of strength. And mostly it is a sign of a good mother that knows when she needs help and asks for it.

Good luck.

By: JILL

JILL — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 01:41:43 +0000

(((hugs)))

By: Maria

Maria — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 01:37:27 +0000

You know you can poke me any time. To vent, babble, whatever.

I'm glad you're seeing someone but I know how terrifying that is.

You can do this, and I'm sorry doing it sucks so fucking bad right now.

Love ya lady.

And I'm sad to hear about Salmon too.